Seriously??

So I got written up today for too much cuddling!!! Are you friggin kidding me?? That head counselor Megan is SUCH a bitch!!! I cannot believe she reported me!! Ok so maybe she told us not to hold them or let them sit on our laps, but do I really need to get in trouble for that crap? I had to go into a private conference room with her, my boss Amanda and the head boss?!! It was like a twisted come to jesus meeting. I was completely bombarded and could not believe that she called me out. I CANNOT stand her!!! All they sat down with me and told me that I can't single kids out (which I don't, i have held every kid there) and that it's for my safety as well as theirs. That some parents might not want their kids to be held. I'm sorry but if a kid gets hurt, i'm gonna pick them up! Idiots. So they told me that they've seen me picking up the kids, etc. etc. and that I've been told before not to hold them. Ridiculous, why is this such a big deal?? Because there is nothing else going on to reprimand us for they have to nitpick and find whatever they can to yell at us for! and Besides, I'm not the only one holding the damn kids!! So do all the other counselors. The big boss guy said that he understands that i'm an understanding person, but that it shouldn't affect my job! w/e. So then they made me read this sheet where they wrote down what I did wrong??? and I had to sign it. He asked me if there was anything that I wanted to write on the page and I was like no, I have nothing to say about this. I told them that I didn't realize it was such a big deal and i have been doing it the past 2 years!! And until this bitch megan came along I never had any problems. Not to call her out or anyhing. But I said whatever I'll stop holding them. So they all stayed in there and i left to go back to my group and of course on the way back I start crying. Ugghhhh. Whenever I get called out for crap I start crying, I can't help it. It's ridiculous i know. And of course as soon as I get back to my group, my baby Caleb comes over and wants to sit on my lap. I tell him that I got in trouble and cant let them sit on my lap anymore, for real. And he has this sad little look on his face, and then I start crying again. UGHHHHH. So this is what it's going to be like for the next month, having to look at these adorable kids and say no, i'm sorry i can't hold you today. Well, there may be some secret holding.... That's my life.